Personal Post Behind a Password

I'm a relatively old dude at this point. Late 30s. I'm not exactly love-stricken everyday.

I don't think I've had infatuated thoughts about someone for over 10 years.

I can't even remember the context around it being turned off.

And it's not like I haven't tried dating anyone in all that time. I've tried to feel it. I just don't.

There is this woman from social media who I've been mutually following for a long time.

We've exchanged public comments on each others posts on and off.

And despite living in the same city, we've never had a private conversation.

I wouldn't say that I actually know this person at all. But she is a good writer.

I enjoy her posts and she's also one of the most beautiful people you can imagine.

I would be lying if I said that I've never day dreamed about this.

Her presence is easily among the most compelling reasons to use the website.

But it's like how you watch a TV show or something and you really like the character.

It's a fantasy. You don't actually know them. They don't actually know you.

This isn't something I've been confused about all this time.

Well, a few days ago she commented about an old picture of me that I posted,

...saying that I would have been her type.

The logical part of me wants to remind myself that this doesn't mean anything.

But we've exchanged several comments since and I keep wondering,

Is she wanting me to message her and be like, "Sup, girl."

She would hate being called that. But you know what I mean.

She probably doesn't want that. Especially not as I am overthinking it this much.

I'm not sure why I'm writing this but I like the idea that...

If she is paying attention to the things I post lately more than usual...

Then she will see this link.

And she will see the password form.

And she will want to know what is inside of it.

And if she asks I will give her the password.